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Life Changes, and I Wouldn't Change It for the World.

Here we go....
So many of you know that I was engaged at the beginning of the year. We planned on getting married in the summer, and I thought that my "happily ever after" was beginning. However, after only about a week of being engaged, I felt that something was seriously wrong, but I didn't know what it was.

Maybe it was because I was so young? Maybe it was because things happened quickly? Maybe it was because I had never pictured myself getting married this soon? But none of these questions seemed to fit the unease that I had in my heart. I went to the temple seeking answers, I prayed constantly (not an over-exaggeration lol), and I talked with my church leaders and close family members about it. Yet I was still lost. I was emotionally drained, I couldn't focus in school, and I wanted to disappear.

One day I was so lost that I skipped all my classes and drove home for the weekend without telling anyone. I felt physically sick at this point, and I knew that I needed to make up my mind one way or another. I went back to school the following week still seeking an answer as to why I was so confused about whether I should marry this person or not.

Through a series of "coincidences" (I think everything happens for a reason), I felt prompted to ask him some questions about things that I and my religion regard as very sacred. Eventually, he was honest with me about things that he had previously withheld from me or lied to me about, and I knew that I had found the answer to my confusion. I made the decision to end the relationship and go on alone. I believe that everybody makes mistakes and everyone can become better through the Atonement of Jesus Christ, but the attitude that he had was scary to me. I could not continue a relationship with someone who had a nonchalant and dishonest attitude about the most important things in life.

Although the beginning of this year was the hardest time of my life, and I never foresaw the hardships I would face, I am so THANKFUL for them. I now have a much deeper testimony of my Savior Jesus Christ, the power and protection that comes from worthy temple attendance, the blessings of prayer, and the love that my family has for me. I would go through that experience over again to learn the lessons that I needed to. I came away with a stronger reliance on my Heavenly Father, and also a new perspective on how strong I am. The gospel of Jesus Christ truly is the reason for everything I do.

I  KNOW that everything happens for a reason, and I am so thankful for everyone's love when I was struggling. It has been several months since then and I took time for myself to fully comprehend the situation, and focus on taking a bad experience and turning it into a stepping stone. I am so excited to go back to BYU in the fall, and eventually find the right guy for me on God's timing. Everything always works out in the end.

Much love,
Bridget

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